The following post features my very own opinion and personal ideas. You don't have to read it if you don't want to. I'm also not trying to tell you what's right or who you should be. That's the whole point of this post--I think that it is so beautiful to be unique and true to yourself. I am expressing who I am so that others might feel comfortable with doing the same.
This past year has been really rough for me, for a lot of reasons that I don't care to go into. However, with all the bad also came the good. I found out that who I am is exactly who I need to be. I am my own person. I am the only one in charge of my happiness, and I know that I need to take time to look after that.
"My greatest misery comes when I feel I have to fit what others are doing, or what I think others expect of me. I am most happy when I am comfortable being me and trying to be what my Father in Heaven and I expect me to be....Miraculously, I have found that I have an untold abundant source of energy to be myself. But the moment I indulge in imitation of my neighbor, I feel fractured and fatigued and find myself forever swimming upstream....We will always have enough resources for being who we are and what we can become."
So, hello world. This is Me:
(introducing the real Lauren Elizabeth Esplin)
-I love to laugh. It's probably my number one favorite thing to do. Ever.
-A lot of times, I don't need to talk about my feelings or my problems. I feel frustrated when I do, actually.
-I love spending quality time with those that I love. It's my #1 love language.
-I don't like to be touched. Especially when it's super unnecessary (It's my lowest scoring love language)
-I spend a lot of time with my family, because I really love them.
-Similarly, I am a homebody. I don't like to be out around town for too long. I like the safety and solace of my home. It is a special, sacred place where I feel like I am perfectly content to do what I love to do, and that I don't need to change anything about myself to please anybody. I am accepted for who I am.
-I was never meant to be rich. I have no idea where the money I make goes...(oh yeah, tuition.)
-I can cook, and I'm actually pretty good at it, but I don't. I r-e-a-l-l-y don't like doing dishes. If I ever find myself a man who loves doing dishes, we'd make a most excellent dream team.
-I thrive in small, intimate groups. Put me in a crowd or a party and I'll probably not say another word.
-Just because I don't voice my opinion doesn't mean I don't have one. Because I do. And they're REALLY strong opinions, most of the time.
-I sing a lot. In the shower, in the car (just...me. Not a radio or CD or anything. Probably because my car doesn't really have either). Also.....in my apartment, and in conversation. Pretty much just all of the time.
-I rock a lot of polka dots. I mean a LOT.
-I love being a teacher. I have had so many people try to talk me out of my profession. Hello, please refer to the above: I was never meant to be rich. I do it for the love. I believe that teaching is an art. Moreover, it's a sadly under-appreciated art. As cheesy and cliche as it may be, I know that children truly are the future, and I know that I can help them become the bright future that our world needs.
-My love for chicken knows no bounds. Chicken nuggets, chicken sandwiches, grilled chicken. OH MY CHERRY PIE. It's just the best in the west.
-I don't swear. That doesn't make me a prude, by the way. I just have different ways of expressing myself.
-I'm actually pretty dang funny. I feel like in order for someone to know that about me, you need to spend enough time with me for me to feel comfortable showcasing my humor. (See above: quality time...)
-The majority of my daily dialogue consists of jokes and movie quotes
-I'm not shy, I'm reserved. I really only try to say something if there's a reason to, if I don't know you too well. I can also talk your ear off.
-I'm a clever girl, when I try to be.
-I like super quirky shows. And British television. It's who I am, okay??
-Books are my FUEL.
-I wear bows like it's my civic duty
-I am a Christian. I know that Jesus is my Light and my Salvation. (read more about my beliefs here)
-I'm crazy sometimes. I think it's okay, really...
-I have a hard time being patient. Both with others and with myself. Mostly with myself.
-I believe that the world is a beautiful place.
Anyways....Thanks for letting me be me, I guess.
Have a lovelee day!